reaching out
Thursday, February 4, 2010 at 10:59PM 
sx-70 camera, tz artistic film
i find there's such a thin line
between taking lots of time for myself and feeling isolated.
i love, crave and need to have a large degree of solo time in my days
but if i don't reach out enough i find myself slipping into feeling really lonely.
i crossed the line this week. battled with loneliness, attempted to befriend it.
i took loneliness out for coffee, a photo walk and tried to convince it to leave me be.
it did nothing but curse me out and tell me how much it didn't love me.
thankfully,
i woke up this morning and all of a sudden it was like summer outside. the widest blue skies.
vancouver mascarading as california for a day.
two friend-dates later i am energized in the way that only connectedness creates.
hoping that i can remember to stay on the heart-filled side of that thin line.
to keep reaching out alongside the path of reaching inwards.
Reader Comments (12)
oh my goodness, I know this line so well!
So there.. . ... ... . ... .we are just with wings, like birds setting lightly on the wires.
It's not a bad thing to realize. ;o) Huggles!
oh my gosh i know exactly what you mean. I need my alone time but sometimes living alone can get so lonely. Some times I do not reach out. I need to work on reaching, extending my hand, and just saying the words "i feel lonely"
You can always reach out to me to chat~ missing you dear girl
thank you for reminding me to "stay on the heart-filled side of that thin line"----I, too, especially during these grey months, stay seeped on the lonely side.
i've been on the wrong side of the line. thanks, vivienne, for gifting me with your insight and giving me the boost i need. smooches and hugs
Hey Vivienne, I just found your blog through Chrissy's at Cul*ti*vate, and it's like reading the inside of my own mind on the screen! The things you said about the line between alone and lonely, and also about becoming an auntie, are things I think and talk about a lot lately. Also I love your dreamy photos. :)
I get it...I dont really like taking loneliness out for coffee...but I often do....so I am glad you were able to put that into words...its very real..If I lived near you I would so hang out with you because your such a real person..its refreshing...be well and I love your pictures...your friend
happy you had those wide blue skies and the connectedness with friends....
it is so important and it why we need each other!! why we need people...relationships.
thank you for your lovely post on my blog about my video...loved your visit and reading your words!
sending love to you!
xxooxxoo
k
it is a very fine and thin line, i know.
i'm so glad you reached out and that your skies were blue and sunny.
miss you. xo
i know this line all too well ... so glad you reached out. so sad it didn't work out this time for us but can't wait to see you soon :-) miss you, xoxox
these photos ~ swoon!!
A fine line indeed, good that you chose to come out on the side of connectedness.
I know this struggle well also, but thank goodness I now have friends I can reach out to.
:-)
I know that line.
So glad you found the sunshine and friend-connections you needed. The sun is out here too and it is just glorious.
Hi Vivienne. Hoping that the sunshine has continued to find you and you have kicked that lonliness to the curb. You are a true gift to the world and it needs to be shared.
Hugs to you dear girl